Wednesday, May 6, 2009

17. What Note?

SM! Those are my initials. But I know I didn't write that, it sounds like one of L's note.

I sit at my desk and slowly push my chair back until it hits the wall. I want to get as far away from this note as possible. I prod the note with a pencil just to make sure it's real. It moves an eighth of an inch and I feel my heart jump. My hands start feeling clammy and I feel a chill grab my body. I'm paralyzed and I can't move my body, all I can do it lower my eyes towards the sheet of paper on my desk. As I try to read the words, my eyes start glassing over like I don't want to confront this. I force myself to read the note, but it doesn't sound familiar. It doesn't sound like something I wrote, but it is signed by me, it is on my desk, and it is my handwriting. Suddenly, I have a thought that someone is trying to play a joke on me, but I dismiss it right away because who would do that? Who could even get into my office? This is not a joke. This is real and now I'm really, really afraid. I don't know what this means.

Actually, a theory is forming in my mind, but I try to push it out of my head because I'm afraid to even think these thoughts; I don't want this to be true.

Thanks joe pitz!

I finally summon the courage to pick up the note but I hold it between my thumb and my forefinger at a corner and keep my arm extended like I don't want it to contaminate me. I put the note through the paper shredder and I feel my shoulders relax a little as I hear the satisfying crunch of paper as the note makes its way through the machine and I watch as it ends up as shreds in the bottom of the bin. There, that should settle things. Whatever that was is gone now and I don't need any explanation. I am just going to pretend like it didn't happen.

I'm starting to regret the day I first noticed L's notes.

2 comments:

Mr. S said...

Finally, I've found a blog with creative writing on it :P Like what I've read so far. I'll give it a thorough read through when I have time so I can give you some constructive criticism, one writer to another.

Check out my blog if you've go the time!

shansPLC said...

Thanks Mr. S!! I'd appreciate any comments or constructive criticism on my writing. I'll definitely check out your blog and do the same!!

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